Guys, this video means a lot to me. First I've got to give credit to @michael_danila for doing an incredible job with the edit and the behind the scenes work. But yesterday I met up with Michael, the founders of @timeoutsociety (@meanwhileabroad and @bookedpackedabroad) and model @meghan.rae_ for a meetup/photoshoot at Minnewaska State Park in New York. The landscape was absolutely incredible, I literally felt like I was in Maine again, but the group I was with made this experience a pure delight. From 6 in the morning to 2 o'clock at night my body was just rushing with adventure, awe and adrenaline. This is what I want to do in the future and these are the kind of people that I want to be with, that I know.
- Unfortunately I came back down to ground level pretty hard today though. I've really been struggling lately feeling like I don't belong and I know I've just talked about this. I've been on a very long grind of meeting new people, day after day and I've yet to meet someone that I fully trust with these experiences; someone who I know cherishes them for what it is, can deal with the long hours without complaining, who shares the same vision as me about how life should be lived, can keep up with the spontaneity of every day of my life, can really push me to expand my creative process and most importantly doesn't want to use me for just pictures or my network. I think saying that sounds very tacky, smug and unappreciative, but it's in proper proportion to how empty it's making me feel. Im not going to be around people that will interfere with the current passion I have right now because that drives everything. This trip yesterday reminded me that these people are certainly out there and I think that that's what I need. The ultimate drive right now is that this project will lead me to the place and people where I finally feel like I belong, that's my greatest asset, that drive.
-To my close friends that I've had forever and have dealt with me not being in contact as much, I love all of you ❤️