I want to tell you that it’s okay to change your mind.
In our culture we’re told to make our career choice when we are 18 years old.
What happens if you make the wrong choice?
No one ever talks about this. But that’s what happened to me.
I went into college as a pre-med major. When I decided that med school would be too intense for me and I wasn’t a “people person” enough to be a doctor, I dropped the pre-med part of my major and was just in the Biomedical Science major.
When it was getting near the end, I looked up what you could do with a Biomedical Science degree and found that most of the jobs required you to go to grad school.
So… I applied to grad school.
And I got into 2 PhD programs. I accepted one of the offers and spent a year in the program. During that year, I learned something very important.
Don’t go to grad school unless you’re interested in the subject area of the program you’re in.
Seems pretty simple. But I hadn’t known it before I went. I had career goals, monetary goals, success goals. But I did not have goals to discover anything or learn anything new. In fact, I found the material dull and confusing. But I had made it into the program, and it was so prestigious. Who would have the audacity to leave a PhD program?
So I struggled through a year. A year of 60 hour work weeks, of studying for hours on end for exams because I HAD to get A’s on them, of putting up a front that I was enjoying myself to my classmates and trying to make friends, of having to be dependent on other people in order to get my research work done on time.
Then, after a year, and after many hard conversations with many people, I left.
I decided to do something that would make me happy in life. That happened to be health and fitness because I have always had a passion for it.
So...why am I writing this all out? Because no one told it was okay to change my mind. Because I was made to feel like an outcast, a quitter, a failure. Because it was one of the largest decisions of my life, and I went through it mostly alone. So to anyone else struggling with a similar decision, know this: you can change your mind.